My eyes wide with confusion,
Furrowed brows, clasped hands, hollow lips,
As my teeth dug as deep
As my nails in red, torn skin.
Wishing I could start again.
One massive, personality transfusion.
My tongue, numb to true words spoken,
But, oh, how I wished that you had seen me.
How I wished that you knew my soul.
But, really, how could you?
Human eyes are blind in the dark
And I am the burrowed mole.
Distance leaves me cold,
But nearness breaks my spirit.
What pray tell, will it take,
This mad girl to unfold.
I live in a daydream,
No, its a nightmare.
As the end of the day draws near,
I have run my soul into the ground,
Dragged my heart across the dirt,
Wrecked my brain into oblivion.
Separation is the key
Element I can not produce.
As I watch my father decline,
Waves of desperation strike like a tsunami.
I have no light to shine.
Out of his mouth spreads
Insanity like wildfire.
His mind is a factory of delusions,
New productions never tire.
I have lost myself in this endeavor,
To right the wrongs he spouts.
Body numb from all the chaos,
Eyes glazed over, I blankly stare.
Now I live here in this daydream.
No, I live here in this nightmare.